i am trying my best to do art but i have too much to do. its impossible to do anything worthwhile because of school. it rules over everything and i find it quite stultifying and oppressive.

as for the tital, it refers to an art project that may, eventualy happen at some point in ssome future. its about Berserker von neuman probes, self replicating weapons and mans fight agianst them and dark future becuase of them. the pictures should be up soon, and i might buy myself a subscription when i have the time.

in other 'news' im starting to wonder if shooting myself would be preferable to trying to live beyond twenty. it seems that the entire pattern of future life may well be a blitz of anti-creative sentiment and wasted scientific knowledge. i have little hope at the moment. maby its just becuase of school. and the fact that most of the adults in britain want to bring back the death penalty. for an encore lets burn the librarys, just to be thorough about putting civilisation back a few hundred years.